Satisfied?

I have been really driven into the Bible lately. And the drive was birthed from a wrenching conviction that loaded unto me when I read John 6.

Jesus has fed the 5000 and when he saw that they would force him to become their king, he withdrawn himself to another town. The people discovered his disappearance and pursue Him. They find him and Jesus had this to say to them:

“…Very truly I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw the signs I performed but because you ate the loaves and had your fill.” -John 6:26

Jesus offers Himself as the Bread of Life, but his audience was more concerned with filling their stomachs then being satisfied by “more than bread alone” (Matt 4:4)

I can’t help but see myself among this crowd. Jesus promises Himself as our Sustainer:

“I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” -John 6:35

He promises to fill the void of my heart, yet I seek to satisfy myself with selfish, short-lived pleasures. I can’t help but feel that I’m not alone.

Jesus is everything we could want and everything we could ever need; How come we are not satisfied with that? What else do you want to attach to Jesus?

Sorry

It has been officially 1 month, 1 day, 9 hours and 29 minutes since I posted my last blog.

I’m sorry.

Summer brought its valleys along with its mountaintop experiences. Wish I can say I spent most of it on the mountain. In plain words, I had drifted from God. I pretended that I could fall back on my commitment long enough for me to enjoy some fun and still be a “Christian”.

God did show me this summer that He is jealous for me. He wants me to myself as much as a couple for eachother. It’s been said that a spouse that is faithful most of the time is not faithful at all.

I had been unfaithful.

Another lesson Jesus told me was that as His child, I am so immersed in His love that even when I drifted, it could never draw me away from His arms. Again He’s jealous for me.

From what He taught me, He showed me that when I was restrained from asking for His forgiveness, I was actually being too proud to accept His grace which has promised to erase my sins and help me when I need it.

A verse from worship group Hillsong’s “Inside Out” sung about Jesus’ unfailing mercy: “A thousand times I failed, your mercy remains; should I stumble again, still I am caught in your grace.”

His grace still amazes me, and I’m still amazed that you are still faithful in your commitment to this blog and your real concern for me.

Thank you. If I learned anything from this, it’s that as humans we need to value that sharing our short-comings are just as important as sharing our “highs” in life.